with so many pieces. 

Ever-changing

Sometimes I replace a piece with another

It fits, snug,

A bright, colorful piece in between other dark, worn out pieces

Then a wave of emotions wash over me

I’m convinced putting the bright piece there just feels stupid now

So I tugged it out and

put the dark piece back

A familiar piece

Dark and heavy, yet oddly comforting

I knew it, 

I’ve been it,

I know how it feels in me

I know I should want to replace these pieces with brighter colors

The core of my puzzle pieces yearn for it

I remember feeling the bright piece fitting in

The calm

The peace

The subtle happiness passing through me

I could do anything

U n s t o p p a b l e

But how am I to let go

when the dark pieces have been a part of me for so, so long?

I know I’ll get there someday

The pieces of my unfinished puzzle

will form

a beautiful collage

Each piece something I love

A lesson learnt

A new perspective gained

A little pebble I picked up 

– just because I liked it.

Each piece would make up a part of me

And I just need to remember

that the dark pieces won’t stay there forever

I can make my own new pieces

and I will fit them in.

Like a pool of water, 

calm, 

ever-present, 

absorbing your body, your motions

Like the flow of a river,

flowing fast,

pulling you along,

Impatient

Like the waves lapping at the beach,

reaching out just to be able to touch you 

I subside, I shy away

And suddenly, in a big wave, I swallow you whole

I needed you

Your whole being

Your hot crown of fervent, bright lights

Your tangled shadows creeping in your footsteps

Your strength

Your-

I love you strongly

Intense, 

Ever-needing

Your whole being submerged in me and still, 

I needed to be within you

Like you need me

As much as I need you

I contain you

calming your fiery blaze, 

Ground you,

You can feel my heat rise when your temper glows like a hot iron

Sway you.

Float or sink, you do as you want

For I am but the medium in which you’ve chosen to sink into 

I am constant

I am here

I am present

I’m like water, 

I love you,

In ways the licks of your flame will never understand

Like the way my waves will always be taken aback by your glorious fire